I'm a slacker.....

I realize that I have been a tad slacking in updating this blog, but I don't think anyone's reading it anyway, so I'm not overly worried about it.  :)

Here's the updates...

I am starting my second trimester on Monday.  I still feel like crap most of the time.  Nauseous from eating, nauseous from not eating, nauseous from driving, nauseous from walking, nauseous from doing anything other than laying down.  Not the most fun I've ever had.  Still worth every minute, though a little harder to remember that in the moment sometimes.

We had our first trimester screening, bloodwork and ultrasound last week and everything is perfect.  M was super worried about this because they had some scary results with their now 6 year old at his first trimester screening.  I know she was very relieved that everything looks good.

My blood pressure has been a bit elevated, which is apparently concerning me more than my doctor.  I had issues in my third trimester with my last pregnancy so I'm a bit worried that this is happening in my first.  I think it's mostly because I'm so completely huge!!!  I weigh more right now than I did when I had my surroson ...  I am kicking myself a bit that I didn't give my body quite enough time to recover between pregnancies, but I was just so anxious to start over.  Lesson learned I guess, because being fat is HARD!  Everyday things just seem so much harder and forget about shopping for clothes!  I was down to only three shirts I could wear to work and after trying on an entire store, finally found two more I didn't hate.  Maternity clothes are going to be a problem ...  Are there even any stores you can buy maternity clothes for fat women??  I see some online, but that isn't really helpful.  If I can try on 100 things and buy two...  my chances of ordering clothes that fit and look acceptable online seems pretty slim.  Oh well ...  another couple months I think before I have to trudge over that bridge.

I've been trying to decide when to "announce" that I'm pregnant.  I've been telling people on an individual basis, but there's that whole coming out on facebook thing that I really want to do.  I'm thinking maybe on Monday when I hit my second trimester.  I really want to share with all of my friends that I'm doing another surrogacy journey!

M&D are still awesome.  I am so thrilled that I got another amazing couple to help.  They treat me like gold and I know they are going to love this little baby for all he or she deserves!

Just one!!!

We had our first ultrasound on Monday and we confirmed there's just one little bun in the oven.  I'm quite happy about this as I really did not want to carry twins.  Seeing that heartbeat was amazing.  I think M got a little teary :)  It feels a lot more real now that we've actually seen something.

Had a lovely lunch before hand with M, D and Chris.  M gave me this lovely heart in memory of the day.  I've put it on my desk at work.

I'm  getting a bit tired of the PIO shots.  I am counting the days until I am done with all of the meds.  Less than three weeks to go and I will be done with all the meds and released to my OB!  I'm so tired lately that no matter how much sleep I get, I feel like I need a few more hours.  Going off meds should help that too ..  or at least I hope so!  Aside from the tiredness and the nausea (mostly when driving...) I don't really feel pregnant yet.  I'm sure that will be changing any day now!

"Oh yeah, uh huh, what's up, what's up, what's up??"

That's what the iCarly doll I have in my kitchen says when you press her necklace.  What's up is my HCG levels!  WOO!!!  We are officially pregnant!  First blood test was last Monday and my levels have been rising as their supposed to.  It's looking like there's only one baby in there and that makes me VERY happy!  Ultrasound will be January 9th to know for sure.

M&D are obviously thrilled.  This was definitely the best Christmas present I could have ever given them.  I'm so glad it took this time!  Now to keep thinking positive thoughts.  This is only the beginning!

Back to the waiting ...

We had our embryo transfer on Saturday morning.  We got the nice nurse this time. :)  We transferred two good 5 day embryos and one so so 6 day.  At least I think that's what we got .. it was a bit confusing.  I had no idea we were transferring three until the doctor handed me the piece of paper to sign.  I got my IM a bit upset when I said "Oh, we're transferring all three?" Apparently everyone thought I knew.  Doesn't really matter in the end ..  one more just means one more chance for it to take!  They made me stay on the table for an hour after the procedure.  An hour is a really long time when you have to pee!!!  At least it gave us all some time to chat.  M and D's 6 year old wants a Batmobile for Christmas.  Not a toy ...  the real thing!  :)  I'm hoping that his parents will be getting an even better gift, a big fat positive (BFP)!!!

I'm going to try VERY hard to hold out until Thursday to home test.  I know if I do it before that I'll just drive myself crazy.

I'm actually feeling a bit "off" today.  Kind of puffy and my stomach feels weird ..  trying to take this as all good signs and not just side effects from all of the progesterone.

Sticky thoughts for the next few days!!!

It's kind of a pain in the butt!

Literally!  I started my progesterone in oil (PIO) shots last night.  The first one is always the hardest for me to psych myself up for.  I do them myself as I found when my boyfriend did them, they just hurt more!  I've become fairly adept at jamming that giant needle into my backside, (even left handed1) but the first one always give me pause.  Last night's HURT and I have a nice bruise to show for it today.  It's funny though ..  even though (if the transfer takes on Saturday, which it WILL!!!) I'll have to do these nightly for 9 weeks and every one of them hurts and bruises ...  after they are done, I'll forget all about that part.

I'm pretty excited for the transfer on Saturday, but I'm still a bit nervous.  If it doesn't take I know M is going to be even more upset than last time.  I wish there was something I could do about that, especially so close to Christmas, but I know there's not.  All I can do is think positive!

Sticky, sticky thoughts!!!

Time, time, time .. See what's become of me ..

So we have a bit of progress.  We've started a new cycle and our next transfer date is scheduled for Saturday December 10th.  I greatly appreciate my RE letting us do a Saturday transfer.  This means I don't have to miss any work for this, which is very good since all of my sick, personal and vacation days have been long since burned with my last pregnancy.  Apparently they don't usually plan transfers for Saturday, but apparently it doesn't hurt to ask!

My boyfriend and I had dinner with M and D last weekend.  It was nice to see them again since we hadn't seen them since the last transfer.  M lost her TYJ bracelet right before we got our negative pregnancy result.  (omen?!?) She bought a new set of them and gave me mine on Saturday night.  Now I'm wearing two of them.  :)  Double the luck for next time??

I met another surrogate from my agency last night.  She was out meeting her new IPs!  Despite a few setbacks, we did manage to meet up.  It's so nice to be able to talk to other people that actually get it.  Hoping we get to be preggo buddies!

Feel free to start sending sticky vibes for the 10th anytime!

Meh.

Officially NOT pregnant.  I'm more annoyed that I have to go back on birth control pills than anything else.  Looks like we're going to try again the first week of December.  M was upset when I talked to her last night. I really hope it takes next time because the retrieval  was really hard on her and they only have enough embies to do one more transfer.

*sigh*