"Oh yeah, uh huh, what's up, what's up, what's up??"

That's what the iCarly doll I have in my kitchen says when you press her necklace.  What's up is my HCG levels!  WOO!!!  We are officially pregnant!  First blood test was last Monday and my levels have been rising as their supposed to.  It's looking like there's only one baby in there and that makes me VERY happy!  Ultrasound will be January 9th to know for sure.

M&D are obviously thrilled.  This was definitely the best Christmas present I could have ever given them.  I'm so glad it took this time!  Now to keep thinking positive thoughts.  This is only the beginning!

Back to the waiting ...

We had our embryo transfer on Saturday morning.  We got the nice nurse this time. :)  We transferred two good 5 day embryos and one so so 6 day.  At least I think that's what we got .. it was a bit confusing.  I had no idea we were transferring three until the doctor handed me the piece of paper to sign.  I got my IM a bit upset when I said "Oh, we're transferring all three?" Apparently everyone thought I knew.  Doesn't really matter in the end ..  one more just means one more chance for it to take!  They made me stay on the table for an hour after the procedure.  An hour is a really long time when you have to pee!!!  At least it gave us all some time to chat.  M and D's 6 year old wants a Batmobile for Christmas.  Not a toy ...  the real thing!  :)  I'm hoping that his parents will be getting an even better gift, a big fat positive (BFP)!!!

I'm going to try VERY hard to hold out until Thursday to home test.  I know if I do it before that I'll just drive myself crazy.

I'm actually feeling a bit "off" today.  Kind of puffy and my stomach feels weird ..  trying to take this as all good signs and not just side effects from all of the progesterone.

Sticky thoughts for the next few days!!!

It's kind of a pain in the butt!

Literally!  I started my progesterone in oil (PIO) shots last night.  The first one is always the hardest for me to psych myself up for.  I do them myself as I found when my boyfriend did them, they just hurt more!  I've become fairly adept at jamming that giant needle into my backside, (even left handed1) but the first one always give me pause.  Last night's HURT and I have a nice bruise to show for it today.  It's funny though ..  even though (if the transfer takes on Saturday, which it WILL!!!) I'll have to do these nightly for 9 weeks and every one of them hurts and bruises ...  after they are done, I'll forget all about that part.

I'm pretty excited for the transfer on Saturday, but I'm still a bit nervous.  If it doesn't take I know M is going to be even more upset than last time.  I wish there was something I could do about that, especially so close to Christmas, but I know there's not.  All I can do is think positive!

Sticky, sticky thoughts!!!

Time, time, time .. See what's become of me ..

So we have a bit of progress.  We've started a new cycle and our next transfer date is scheduled for Saturday December 10th.  I greatly appreciate my RE letting us do a Saturday transfer.  This means I don't have to miss any work for this, which is very good since all of my sick, personal and vacation days have been long since burned with my last pregnancy.  Apparently they don't usually plan transfers for Saturday, but apparently it doesn't hurt to ask!

My boyfriend and I had dinner with M and D last weekend.  It was nice to see them again since we hadn't seen them since the last transfer.  M lost her TYJ bracelet right before we got our negative pregnancy result.  (omen?!?) She bought a new set of them and gave me mine on Saturday night.  Now I'm wearing two of them.  :)  Double the luck for next time??

I met another surrogate from my agency last night.  She was out meeting her new IPs!  Despite a few setbacks, we did manage to meet up.  It's so nice to be able to talk to other people that actually get it.  Hoping we get to be preggo buddies!

Feel free to start sending sticky vibes for the 10th anytime!

Meh.

Officially NOT pregnant.  I'm more annoyed that I have to go back on birth control pills than anything else.  Looks like we're going to try again the first week of December.  M was upset when I talked to her last night. I really hope it takes next time because the retrieval  was really hard on her and they only have enough embies to do one more transfer.

*sigh*

The waiting is the hardest part!

I'm happy to say that the transfer went well yesterday.  We implanted two super healthy 5 day embryos and now we wait!  This is definitely the hardest part.  I'm going to home test starting on Saturday.  Saturday seems like it's a month away!

Before the transfer I gave M (I'm going to go with M and D for mom and dad instead of IM and IF going forward..) a pair of bracelets I had found a few weeks ago that seemed to speak PERFECTLY to our situation. You can check them out here ... http://www.signals.com/cgi-bin/hazel.cgi?action=DETAIL&ITEM=HL8592

They are "Trust Your Journey" bracelets and they come in pairs!  How perfect is that?  I actually cried when I saw them in the catalog, because I felt like they were made just for us.  I wrote a note in a card for M and gave it to her right before we all went in.  I had to ask the (somewhat mean!) nurse to give us 30 more seconds so she had time to read it, but it was super important to me that she read it before the transfer.  M is a very talkative woman, and she was rendered speechless.  Of course she got teary, which meant I got teary too, but now we both have our bracelets and I'm hoping we'll wear them through this journey.  She kept telling me yesterday how much she loved it.  That not only for this, but for everything in her life she second guesses herself and that this will be a physical reminder that sometimes you just need to TRUST!   

I'm feeling kind of emotional today ..  Wondering if it's the hormone's I'm taking finally kicking in, or if it's just anticipating the next week.  All I know is that I was watching the last 5 minutes of Made on MTV (no judgement!  Daytime TV sucks!) and it was about cheerleaders, which I really couldn't care less about, but it still made me cry!  Not fair!!!  

...and now back to the waiting!  

**Edit I just watched the next episode of Made.  It was about hip hop and that made me cry too.  CLEARLY there is something wrong with me!  :)  

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Tomorrow is transfer day!  Appointment is at 11am!  So excited!!!  Think sticky thoughts!